Sprained my finger, both the finger where people always place on during their wedding, i guess it just mean it's not ready for me to get those rings yet...
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Life is back to the normal routine, work, eat & sleep. I no longer know what is it that i've been wanting to achieve in life, i can't help but feel i'm hopeless at a time like this.
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Am i being test? I didn't want to judge this, when i know how heartless and cruel i can be when i determine to do it, everything will end up me hating myself, therefore there's no reason for me to do that... no matter how much i would be blamed, how foolish i could be in front of everyone around me, my goal in life... is never regret any decision i make.
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No longer i have someone special to miss, someone to keep me motivated, someone who i would always look forward to meet. The world look so empty to me, when it's filled with laughter and entertainment, but all i could care to see or took into consideretion was the sad and depressed moments. I've been telling myself there's no one that could be trust forever, and there isn't someone who would willingly stay by your side wtihout asking for anything back in return, these hopes and dreams were just themselves, nothing more than that. Too much betrayal, it had taught me not to let my guard down easily, i hate it like this "Never Believe & you will never be betrayed; Never get close & you will never get hurt", i hope this sentences will stay with me as long as possible, so that i won't have to remind myself i've been living in a fake life.
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