I'm easily hurted by words, especially when it comes from someone that meant a lot to me. I've forgotten how did it happened, or how long i've been holding on to it, all i know right now is that things had changed between us no matter how much i wanted to deny it.
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Mistakes I made is no longer countable, i'll admit it, to be true to yourself & honest to the others. The 1st thing i've regretted in my life was i quit the team coached by Mr Woon when i was still 13 and i'm able to train with the former states players, i've missed the best opportnity given in basketball, wish to turn back time but it's not and never going to happen again.
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Here's the mistakes i've done, and i'm still regretting it. To upset a very close friend, and things are no longer working well between us, how sad that is.. If i have the chance to turn back time i will go against my parents even if they are gonna ignore me for the rest of the year. The scar created are no longer healable, i'm doing whatever i can to atone what i've done, but it doesn't bring me anywhere, it only proves how silly and weak i am.
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I hate myself for being in a situation like this, but i hope by hating myself i will make others feel better. I'm tired of feeling regret, I was driving when i heard the news of what just happened while not realising it, no sentence nor words able to express the emotions.. but a single teardrop had explained everything. I hate this... but i hate myself more.
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